Friday, June 17, 2011

Nostalgic again when watching sunset alone at Putrajaya

Came to my favourite place for jogging again, the straight-long road at Putrajaya stretching from Putra Square in front of the Prime Minister’s Department until Putrajaya International Convention Centre (PICC), then ran back to the place I parked my car. It was a normal routine for me to stop by the lakeside near the Malaysian Treasury building, lying down restlessly on the soft whizzing grasses, enjoyed watching the sunset alone as I did few times before whenever I was having some disturbances in my hearts of hearts while nobody was there to comfort my disturbed heart.

Not thinking of anything, the gentle wind come, sweeping away my tiredness, wipe away my profuse sweat, sobering my pounding hearts after jogging for almost an hour there. The giggling of cicadas, chirping of birds and breezing of wind were like a gigantic orchestra performing life before my eyes freely. All these provide some sobering effects to my mind and soul. Thanks a lot, the creation of the Almighty of this wonderful nature.

A lovely couple came by, asking my help to take their intimate photos beside the lake where I was watching the sunset. Luckily it was not my first time to hold DSLR. If not, it will be shameful on me. I envied them so much, being so close and intimate by teasing each other ceaselessly. Since then, my mind flashed back to the time when I was still in the 2nd year of my undergraduate studies, holding the post of students’ representative of UPM. I remembered that I missed the opportunity of establishing a relationship with my close friend as I was quite busy in my work as a student leader, looking after people’s welfare and actively involving in other clubs while focusing in my studies the same time. I felt awfully regretful on her as she was a good one. Luckily she got a good one with her now, to ease my pain of disappointing her. Nevertheless, we are still good friends now.

I remember when I was studying in form six in 2004/2005 where I was also busy involving in many extra-curricular activities even though it was a tough time to balance it with academic. Form six was really not easy. The relationship among my classmates were quite good as we had wonderful time with each other in many occasions such as sixth form night talent competition, graduation dinner, gatherings, to name a few. It was a surprise for me when they celebrated my birthday by giving me a special present with many wishes written on small pieces of paper by all my classmates, being inserted into the bottle containing a lovely bear. I didn’t make effort to read those written wishes one by one that time due to the same excuse, busy. I managed to read those wishes after some time. Then only I found that one of my close friends uttered her feeling out. It was too late for me as even though she was at the same university with me, working together in the same society. Hearsay told me that she was going to start a relationship with one of my friend. They have a good relationship until now. I am happy to see that. Yet, I regretted of sparing some important ones beside me. Tears blinded my eyes. I missed many things in my life, a sin which is not easily forgiven for me. I do think that there is still hope beyond the rich tapestry of our life. Long road ahead.

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Nostalgic whenever I am back to my secondary school

Back to my Alma Mater, Sam Tet School again. Don't know why, it was a normal routine for me just to drop by and have a look and walk around there whenever I am back to hometown. If it is during weekdays, i will definitely look for my beloved teachers who are close with me for a chat, giggling on those recent updates about happenings in my school whenever I was not around. It was weekend yesterday, so it was so quiet and serene, not even a ghost could be seen there (over a bit).

Sitting at the iron bench, looking at the field. No one was there. It made me to recalled back to the time when I was still a secondary student, being actively involved in co-curricular activities. During those time, it was normal to see us sworn around the school field, marched under the hot sun in the afternoon, playing football with our friends after co-curricular activities, or listening to the songs played by our school band. Many of us will stay until evening then only we will go back on Saturday. Some of us even come on Sunday. It was the climax of the glory of student's activities in the school that time as all uniform bodies were competing each other to help in nurturing top student leaders for the country.

But those scenes couldn't be seen in my school or perhaps all other schools now. It was so silent, serene and tranquil until I thought I was at a God forsaken place perhaps. What happened to our younger generations now? So many silly excuses given by their so-called caring parents to deter their child from actively involving in co-curricular activities by staying at the school until late hours. They wanted to let their child to have more time for tuition indeed. For me, they pampered their child lavishly until they became spoilt brat, became so unsociable, not having enough soft and hard skills for future challenges. They will spend more time sitting in front of their desktop, playing computer games, watching unhealthy movies, or indulging in Facebook. It is an unhealthy phenomenon now. The parents are too protective, restrictive, and objective in pointing their fingers to others like the school when their child is having problem. Our society is sick now. The parents are destroying their own younger generations now, especially those born after 1990s. Most students like to loiter around in the shopping complexes rather than indulging in healthy activities at school. It is always better late than never, trying to save our younger generations at an early stage before it infect our society in future.